Whats Real In Your Heart?

5 Secrets, 5 Truths
5 Things- List 5 things that you want to say to people, but never will.
- Don't say who they are.
- Never discuss it again.

1. Im sorry that im so damn caught up in my life that we dont spend as much time as we used to..The both of you are my whole world and i love the both of you more than anyone can imagine and i promise to make more of an effort..

2. Its your fault..I blame you..You ruined it for me..

3. You are so fucking ANNOYING!! You think you know everything and you think you're better than everyone..Or at least you WISH you were better than everyone..News flash! You kinda suck and you have absolutely no idea what you're talking about..You're way too full of it..I hate the way you talk to people coz you're so condescending..But..I know you wish you were me..

4. You deserve what you got..I hope you see how happy i am and realise that you will never ever have that because i know better now..I know you think of me..

5. If only you could see how much i hate you because i think its pretty damn obvious..Stop thinking that you're better than me coz you're not..You'll never be half the person that i am..Oh..And you're actually kinda fat and so cheap..Where is your dignity??

Im sorry!! I know that fat comment was so immature and childish but i couldnt help it!!

: )

I taggg: Ling, Mich, Kris, Rah, Ying and M when she starts blogging again!! Yayyy!! I cant wait!! : DD

Stop Me And Steal My Breath

Kristyn's Sweet 16 @ Spices Restaurant, Concorde Kuala Lumpur

Last Saturday, Kris and her brother Kevin celebrated their 16th and 21st birthdays..

Tons and tons of fun and it made me wanna go clubbing after that! But we didnt..Coz we're all good kids and we all have exams soon so we all went home (kinda) early..But we DID go to Hartamas Square to shisha..But that doesnt really count la okay..Its Hartamas Square..

It amazes me how much we've all grown up..Last year, if you had asked us to go clubbing during our SPM trials, we would've..We would have made up all sorts of nonsense such as "we'll study tomorrow" "this is the last time" etc etc to make ourselves feel better but in the end, we would've gone anyways..Now, even when we're 2 weeks away from our exams, we dont club so that we can study..

Gosh! I feel so proud of myself and my friends right now!! YOU GUYS!! WE'RE GROWING UP!! OMG!!

Okay so im going to steer completely off topic now and ask you to look at all the pretty pretty many many pictures we took that night..They're not really in order coz there were SO MANY and it took me FOREVER to upload them so you guys better freaking appreciate it okay!! Okay good..



Her sweet sixteeeen.. : ) Love you Krisss!!



What we got her for her birthday..Pretty, no??



Kris and Kevin..



Ohmygod i wonder how long Kris and her family is going to be eating leftover cake for..And on top of all the cake, she's got cuppacakes to eat too!!



The Kok's..



Shisha-ing at Hartamas Square..Grape!! Yuuuuummmm!!



I was taking a picture of Mich and Ling was taking a picture of me and Mich was taking a picture of Ling..



This one went the other way..Kim-Ling..Ling-Mich..Mich-Kim..We were bored la okay!! The others were busy doing other stuff and it was just me, Ling and Mich waiting for them in the car!!



Kim, Manda, Ling, Mich..



Intelligent and Jijam..



My name is Nizam and im so cool..



Ohmygod laa..Look at Ben's face..Seriously hon..Please try not to look so..Like that..



My gorgeous gorgeous girls.. <3333



Candid shot..Im not sure who took this..



Kristyn's friends from SSG..



Picture of the night!! I love you sweetiee!!

Nizam and the birthday girl..

Okay whats happening here is that Ling is on the phone and Ben is holding her hair and saying "I wonder what she would do if i went to her house at night and cut her hair" I dont know what Ling would do but i know what i would do..I would cut of something of Ben's too.. : )

Ling and the birthday girl..

We're Ben and Siang and we're so cool and macho dont mess with us..

I know you guys love this picture..You're welcome..

My prada bitch..

My boyfriend thinks he's a model..Hahahaha!!

This is one of the pictures i got of Ling during the Kim-Mich-Ling picture session..

Yeah this too..

Group picture..

Kisskiss!! I missed you Siang!!

Another group picture..

Gorgeous Cai Jin..Love her dress!!

The four of us..Love you guys like craaaaaaazy!!

: ) My Jijam..

<33333

Mi corazon..

Not so tough anymore la you two..

My sayangs..

My boys.. <33333

Met Adri and Hartamas Square..And Zarif and Shana and Dahlia and Arif too..

Gorgeous Cai Jin..

Shishaaaa...

Okay, now this! Is an awesome picture!! They look so freaking pretty man..

Ee May and Kent.. : ) Kent..I missed you!!

Tongue piercings..Look at Ling's stud!!

Kris shisha-ing..

So anyways!! I didnt go to school on Monday and Tuesday coz i wanted to study for my exams but went to Pink to meet up with Ben, Ling and Acap..But i studied a lil at Pink okay!! Picture from that day up soon..Those pictures are freaking freaking funny man!!

I've made a promise to myself that i am NOT gonna go to the gym until my exams are over..I will stay home and study!! But im still gonna go for cheer laaa.. : p

I have cheer tonight!! : D I love cheer laaa.. : )

Let The Light Shine Through

11am Sunday morning..Haha! Sounds like the starting to a song..Ohmygod laaa..I crack myself up..

Im blogging on my desktop and the keyboard feels so weird and im typing really slow and making lots of typos coz im so used to typing on my Vaio now and the keyboard is totally different from my desktop keyboard..

Anyway! I've been busy as all hell with my finals which are in two weeks, cheer, gym, Ben and trying to find time for a social life so i've barely had time to blog..I've made a vow to myself that i will NOT go out at night until my exams are over..Then im going out every night maaaan!! Lol..

There was this THING that all of us went for yesterday but i havent uploaded the pictures in my laptop and i dont wanna spoil it by blogging about it now and then blogging about it tomorrow coz then it will seem not-so special so wait until tomorrow!! To those of you who want pictures..Hahahahahahahahahaha! WAIT LA!




We missed you yesterday M..Text me!! Take care of yourself sweetie pie!! We're all thinking of you..Xoxoxo

Turn It Inside Out So I Can See

Yesterday.......

I paid attention in English!! I took notes and everything..

Mr Michael gave me 1 more Chem assignment and Mr Mark gave me a 4 page script to memorize both to be completed by Friday which is tomorrow..

I watched Sunway College A-Levels and CIMP play a friendly football match against each other..I dont know who won coz me and Ben left early coz i had cheer..

I learned that i should never buy the Ipanema cake from Starbucks coz it takes like shite..

I saw the CUTEST baby i have ever seen ever!!

Me, Ling and Ivan talked about cheer while watching football..

Nizam came to Sunway after Ling and Ivan left and totally surprised me..I was sitting there watching the game and for some reason, i turn to my right and there he is walking towards me with the biggest smile on his face!!

I went for cheer and finally got the "pop" for my cradle..

I got the Cheer 07 DVD and i watched all of the Stunners and Strikers mistakes..

I did not do ANY work at all..

Today......

I could barely drag my tired ass out of bed..

I had the biggest craving EVER for Maccy's breakfast..

Mich turns 18..

I attempted to pay attention in English but it was just too early in the morning for my brain to take any of it in..

Our cafeteria started selling Super Rings..YUUUUMMMMMM!

I learned valuable information from Rah Rah..

Dr Reed got pissed at Willy and Aaron and i saved Aaron's ass..

I didnt pay any attention during TOK and Business the last two periods coz i was too busy arguing with Ben..

Im going for M's farewell dinner and then sleeping over at her place..

I MUST do some work!!

Tomorrow.....

I will go for class no matter how tired i feel..

M is going to Aussieland.. : ( Sniff sniff..

Kiss Me All Over

What a difference a week can make..Last week..I was totally on top of my work with absolutely nothing due..But then i slacked over the weekend and i havent done any of my work yet this week so i have 2 Chemistry reports, 1 Spanish assignment, 2 English assignments, 2 Business assigments, part 3 of my EE, my CAS folder and my revised version of my Theatre analysis that i have yet to do and hand up..

My advice to all the Form 5's out there? Dont do IB unless you're prepared to work like a dog..But then i read other people's blogs and they seem to have lots of work to do too so maybe its just me..But then again..They have lots of work to do in 3 or 4 subjects..I have lots of work to do in 9 subjects including TOK (Theory of Knowledge), CAS (Creativity, Action and Service) and EE (Extended Essay)

Ohmygod just typing that out is enough to make me break out in a cold sweat..I dont know how im going to finish this mountain of work by next week coz the rest of my week is seriously jam packed with stuff to do..

Im going to watch Ben play football after school today and then after that i have cheer..Tomorrow i have M's dinner and then im going to sleep over her place coz she's leaving for Australia on Friday..Normally i would follow her to the airport to see her off but her flight is in the morning and i really cant miss class coz my finals are in two weeks and i havent even started studying!! And then i have another cheer practice on either Friday or Saturday and then there's Bryan's victory dinner on Saturday night and on Sunday i have gymnastics..And since the California Fitness gym just opened in Sunway, i was planning to attend a couple of the dance classes..But that obviously not happening now..

I think im on the verge of a nervous breakdown..What do you think?

No la..Im a strong girl and i can handle this and i WILL finish all my work..

On a brighter note, here's Bryan's fab "2007 Champion" picture..Im guessing that it was taken and edited by Miko..He's a really good photographer and he specialises in motor sports..You can go to his website to look at all the pictures he's taken of races and practices..He's got some really really awesome shots and if you're a fan of photography or a motor sports fan, i suggest you go and take a look at his site..You wont be disappointed..Trust me..



Awesome no??

Btw, Bryan won the Rotax Max Challenge with 407 points..Second place Ooi Fei Hoong finished with 406 (!!!!) points and third place Ryan Ritchie (My godbrother) finished with 403 points..Very VERY close fight..Bryan finished in third place with 314 points for the other championship that he took part in, the Asia Max behind first place Calvin Wong (349 points) and second place Rio Haryanto from Indonesia (322 points)..So Bryan and Calvin will be representing Malaysia in Dubai for World Finals in November..And if im not mistaken Rio representing Indonesia.. : ) Yay..I like Rio!! : )

Im not sure why i bothered to type all that out but you know..Maybe you're interested and besides..Im very very proud of Bryan considering that this is his rookie year in Junior (Eventhough he pissed the shite out of me this morning) All the other drivers have been racing in this category for 2 years or more.. : D

Oh and also..Bryan came out in the Malay Mail today but its just a short article..There will be a bigger thing next week when the reporters come to interview him.. : DD

Im very tempted to blog about the bitch security guards at Sri KDU but i dont want to ruin the vibe so i'll save that for another day..

Im not sure if im going to be blogging regularly for the rest of the week coz of all my work (And its not the end of the week yet so im sure i'll be getting more work from the teachers!!) but i'll try..I shouldnt even be here right now!! I should be catching up on all my unfinished work!! But its too noisy in class now la..So many types of music playing..But im gonna try anyway coz i feel so guilty..Lol..Okay bye ya'll!!

September 11th 2001

Today marks the 6th year since the September 11th attacks on America in 2001..

I've been watching the documentaries and such on tv and up till today, i tear up and feel like crying when i hear the families of the departed speak about the demise of their loved ones..

I think about how lucky i am that all my family is safe and how thankful i should be for that..And then i think of what i would do if i got a call from my dad or my boyfriend telling me that he's on a plane that being hijacked and how i am not and will never be strong enough to handle something like this happening to me..The families who have lost loved ones have no idea how much i admire them for being able to go on with their lives because i would probably fall to pieces and commit suicide if something like this ever happened to me..

When i think of the thousands of innocent lives lost, it makes me so sad to think that people are capable of such actions..Did the terrorists think of the thousands of families that would be torn apart? Did they think of the thousands of children who would grow up without a father? Did they think about the thousands of parents who would have to bury their child? Did they think of the thousands of people who would have lost their wife/husband/bestfriend/father/mother etc?

I remember that horrible day so clearly that its scary..I was 11 then..We had just came back from a trip in Redang and grandpa called to tell us what had happened because we did not have cable on the island and didnt know what was happening..I remember waiting for all our family living in the States to call us and tell us that they were all okay..And i remember the relief that washed over me and my family, most of all my grandma when her sister called us to tell us that all of them were safe and unharmed..

Its weird that something like this affects me so much when it doesnt really have anything to do with me..But i really really feel for the lives that were lost and the friends and family that have been left behind..

Say a prayer tonight..Thank God that you are safe and your family is safe..Pray that friends and family of the departed are happy and can think of their loved ones and smile, not cry..Pray that something like this never has to happen ever again..

I Just Wanna Dance With You

I cant find my graphic caluculator..I left it under my desk during the holidays coz i was too lazy to take it home and now i cant find it..I know i know..How irresposible Kim..But whatever okay!! Im a teenager and im SUPPOSED to be irresponsible!! It is my RIGHT!! But im not usually this irresponsible..I take good care of my things..But i cant find my calculator!! I wrote my name in it and there were two white dots at the top in liquid paper..But i cant seem to find it!! : ( I feel so lost in Math class without it..I know that none of the IB students would steal it coz we all have one but someone may have taken it by accident coz we all have the same one..So im going to go and check EVERYONE'S calculator after this..The thing im worried about is that one of the cleaners might have taken it..But why would they wanna take it right? Its not a handphone or a laptop or money..They cant even use it!! I feel so depressed that i cant find my calculator..I HATE it when i lose things!!

I was so addicted to Solitaire and Spider Solitaire this past weekend and the first thing i did when i woke up on Saturday morning was play Spider Solitaire..Lol! And also Ben..I took so long to get ready on Friday coz i played like 3 games of Spider Solitaire after my shower..Hahahaha! Ohmygod la..Im so pathetic..But actually right..It gets really boring after awhile..So i dont play anymore..

On Saturday i went for a barbecue at Uncle Jason's house coz Uncle Paul and Aunty Chris is leaving for Hong Kong soon..No pictures coz i forgot to bring my camera..I was supposed to go out with Ben that night coz it was our 9 month but daddy said that it was important to Uncle Paul that i was there..And if you're wondering who Uncle Paul is..Scroll down a couple of posts and look for the one with mine and Bryan's baby pictures..There's a picture of him there..Im sad for my parents that he's going coz all their friends seem to be going away!! First Uncle Chun Leong and Aunty Judy go to Singapore..Then Aunty Jeannie left us and now Uncle Paul and Aunty Chris is going to Hong Kong..Its so sad that we hardly see each other anymore coz we're all so busy with our own lives..But every single one of them will always always be a huge part of my life and they're all very important to me..I think we may see Uncle Paul and Aunty Chris again before they leave and i'll make sure i take tonnes of pictures!! Oh and their daughter Michelle is THE cutest thing ever!!

Bryan was racing on Sunday but i couldnt go coz i had cheer but guess what?!? Bryan won the championship which means my little brother is the new Malaysian junior karting champion..So its world finals for us in Dubai baby!! Im so so proud of Bryan coz this is his first year racing in junior and we totally werent expecting Bryan to make it to world finals this year..So do me a favour and congratulate him if you see him okay? Coz he's really happy and he worked really hard for it..Oh and of course Aaron deserves some credit too!! Bryan couldnt have done it without him and im pretty sure that he's really excited that Bryan made it to world finals..

Here are the pictures from Loft @ Zouk during Merdeka eve..I know they're so overdue but sue me la..I was lazy.. :p They're not in order and didnt bother arranging them so they're kinda all over the place so i apologize..



Ling's face after taking a shot..

The next two pictures show us Jijam's dirty little secrets..



Ling..



And Kim..

We're Jijam's girls la..Right Jijam?? Mwah!! Love youuuu!!



Love this picture of M!



Riam on her way to Tipsy City..And you can see the yummiest lychee martini ever at the bottom right of the picture..



First round of shots..



Yummy!! Yeah right!!



Another round of shots..



This was when M and Ling were sober..



Im sad coz i cant drink tonight coz our designated driver (Ling) decided to get drunk instead..



Im macho..Im macho too..



My boysssss!! : )



Whoooo! How sexy is this!!



Super flyyyy!!



Riam and Kris..



This was the first round of shots too..



Group picture while everyone is still sober..



: ) Love you darling!!

I have no idea how many shots they (the girls) took that night but ohmygod they were all so tipsaaay and Riam provided me with so much entertainment!! Up till now, all i have to do is think about the "salsa-ing" and i disolve into peals of laughter!! I left early that night coz i wasnt feeling well but i had so much fun and i cant wait for us to do it again!!

Kisskiss love you my beautiful girls!!

Like how you are the best thing in my world and how im so proud to call you my girl - Sorry, Blame It On Me by Akon..I think that that is the sweetest thing ever!! Every girl needs a guy to say that to her la.. : )